两年了，时光流逝。说是放下了，可是心中对您的思念依然没减。也许最后那三年，我们真的很多时间在一起，所以身边的很多事与物都会让我想起您。


想到mee siam, 就想到你。上超市，多希望还是你在推着购物车，陪我逛。周六早上，多希望还能陪你去咖啡店吃半生熟鸡蛋。和你在一起的时候，我就好像回到一个小女孩一样，可以和爸爸撒娇。


又是十月，又是秋天，前天停留在我床上的飞蛾是您吗？是您来看我了吗？


心还是在痛，眼泪还是会流。很想能再次牵到你的手，很希望能再拥抱你，永远那么爱你，爸爸。。。。

Arrggghhh....

Am I impatient? or is she totally stubborn? Guess different pple will tell me different answers. But she's really testing my limits. I know I shd not, I know I promised him, but why cant she be more like him? I would love to live the rest of her life with her if she's more like him, seriously. But if she continues to be like that, I think my life will be shortened too.

ok ok, go on and call me unfilial. I dun care!

Just shut up!

Mouth: Hey, would you just stop talking and let me enjoy peace and quiet?

Me: why? I've views and opinions and I should share it what? and when I care for pple around me, I need to let them know.

Mouth: Since when do pple believe what you say or how you see things? Do you think they trust you? Please la, it's been like that since young and you still never learn yr lesson.

Me: but...but...I believe there'll come a day when they'll see my truthfulness and believe that I'm genuine. Then they'll see my point of view.

Mouth: ya ya ya, when will that day come? will that day even come? Just shut up and save yr breath la. Nobody will agree with you, you'll always be at fault, always the one that's wrong.

Me:...................

付与真心诚意、付出了真我，可又有谁明了？当身边最亲最近的人都有所置疑的时候，你还能要求什么人明了？

爸爸，我好想你！似乎这世上只有你明白我的出发点，只有你知道我的心在哪里。

First snow in Shanghai, 2010

We welcomed Shanghai's first snow for 2010 today!

Weather forecast said there'll be rain-cum-snow today due to the cold current from the North. Temperature dropped a good 5 degrees Celcius to a low of about 3degC and high of 8degC.

The snow started around midday with tiny specks of snow flying in the air, melting the moment it touches a solid surface. An hour later, the snow flakes got bigger as the wind got stronger! By 330pm, this is what we have! Everywhere is turning white and snow is accumulating!

The wind is still quite strong and it's freezing cold out there. But the kids are having so much fun, throwing snow at each other already!

If it continues to be dry and snowing tonight, we'll be expecting to walk on ice tomorrow! brrr.....

秋天残留的足迹

今早看着是晴朗、有阳光的天气，可一下楼就冷得直哆嗦。。。这温度又跌了！

今年的秋天太短了，眼看冬天就要来临了。温度降得太快了，树木花草都来不及反应，树叶也来不及转黄飘落，就都干枯在树上了！看来我们即将迎接的会是一个寒冬了。

永远思念您

时间过得太匆匆，您离去已经整整一年了。去年这天所发生的一切，依然历历在目。每当想起您、看到您留下的物件或您的照片时，心里还是一阵酸痛，眼眶还是不自主地泛起泪珠。时间并没有冲淡对您的思念，也没有减少失去您的痛楚。

从小就很渴望您多一点关怀，希望您能多和我说说话，可是您却是如此严肃、不苟言笑。但我知道，您是爱我们的。陪您去看中国电影纪录片，什么《中国十大奇观》之类的影片，我知道您是多么想念家乡、想念爷爷奶奶。在我写给爷爷的信中我提过，长大后我要陪您回去和他们团聚。可惜，他们都每能等到我长大。

叛逆期把我们之间的距离拉得更远了。到了结婚成家后，变成我没时间去了解您的状况。待我闲下来的时候，您已是白发苍苍。

六年前的秋天，您到北京探望我们，我是多么的开心，您知道吗？陪您攀长城、逛故宫、游天安门，仿佛圆了我儿时的愿望，从新认识您、接近您。随您回莆田老家，见到您和叔叔、堂叔们的交流，那份喜悦，让我意识到您对他们的感情有多深。

冥冥中一切似乎已经注定；我们提前回新，买了房子后又把您两老接过来住。我感谢苍天赐给我这个机会，让我陪您走完人生最后的数年。感谢上天给我这个不孝女有机会作出补偿，尽我应尽的孝道。我是幸运的，我是有福的，因为在您人生最后的日子里，我都在您身边陪伴着。人家都说女儿多亲近妈妈，可我却偏偏相反，一颗心都是念您多过念妈妈。

您走了，我的心也脱了一截。身子好像一时间老了，对事与物也不怎么提得起劲了。也许时间长了，心里的痛楚会渐渐减少，可是感觉再也回不到从前那样了。

人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全，但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。。。。

您在夜空的那端，是否还好？知道我依然在思念着您吗？

Kids will always be kids

Hub's traveling again, and as usual, the kids all bunked-in in my room.

They were having so much fun ....laughing, joking, giggling, play-pretending, teasing each other away. It's moments like these that assured us that it was a right choice to room them together for as long as possible.

One moment it was like a riot in the room and the noise level was hitting the roof! the next moment, they're all sound asleep and the room is left with the sound of the aircon blowing.

Having been nagging my 14yo to please grow up and behave better and be more matured. But he's really the 'leader' to his 2 brothers, esp when it comes to play! Still remember when he went on a 10-day trip with his school 2years ago, it became so quiet at home and the other 2 seemed so lost. Without this live wire, they're just not the same at all. So I guess I'll just to have let him be, and let him continue to be the leader to his brothers.