Accident

Nope, not me. But we were the first witnesses.

Went to Suntec with Nic for his piano theory grading test this morning. Followed by a rush buy at the IT Show. Was on our way home when we witness this 'freak' accident.

Was driving along Benjamin Sheares Bridge, heading towards the Tanjong Rhu entrance into KPE. We were on the right lane and a motorcycle was on the left. Just as we approached the curve into the tunnel, suddenly, the motorcycle next to me hit something and went into a somersault!!! The motorist landed face/chest down, seemed really bad.

My first instinct was filter left and stopped the car at the road shoulder. Reminded Nic to stay put in the car, while I quickly got off and ran towards the motorist. As I got off, I realise 3 other cars stopped behind me and the drivers also got off to help. As we approached the motorist, we could see him lying face down, motionless. Blood was coming out of his mouth and nose. A Cisco van and another car stopped behind him and his bike to prevent any reckless driver from crashing into him.

I squat down and kept calling, "uncle, are you ok? uncle, are you concious??" He's a slightly chubby, 50-60yo Chinese man. Part of his denture broke and flew out, lying on the road looking bloody! After a short while, he was started moving. I kept asking him if he felt any pain in his neck or his back, and told him to stay still and wait for the ambulance. The Cisco officer called for the ambulance, while few other guys helped to pick up his bike and pushed it to the side.

After about 5mins, the uncle kind of regained his senses after the shock and got up with the help of the guys. They sat him down at the side of the road and gave him tissue to clean himself. I picked up the broken piece of his denture with a piece of tissue and gave it back to him. As he cleaned himself, I asked if he wanted to call his family and inform them. He kept saying no and that he can ride the bike back himself!!?? We told him no, he needs to wait for the ambulance to check him before he could go.

Seeing that he looked ok, and there were the other guys around. I apologised and excused myself as Nic was still waiting in the car.

There was no report of the accident in the papers. Apparently what his bike hit was a 2ft by 1ft by 1/2ft block of wood. Possibly dropped off from some trucks or what. I really hope the uncle wasn't badly injured. Hope he didn't have any internal injuries because the fall really looked very bad. His bike's handle was a little slanted and the side mirrors were broken. His helmet's front shield also flew off. Really hope he is fine.

同样是中午；同样是沿着KPE, ECP, Keppel Rd, Cantonment Rd；同样的来到中央医院。多么熟悉的路程，那么熟悉的地方。心情依然沉重，情绪有点失控。随着车子驶入停车场，显现在眼前的就是爸最后入住的那座病房，一时泪水失控地在眼眶里打滚。那天的点点滴滴又历历在目，让人心痛不已。


快五个月了，没想到我仍然放不下。一直都在劝他们要看开、要放下，可是却忽略了自己一直压抑在心底的痛楚。现在它就好像绝堤一样，汹涌而出，迅速把我淹没！原来我是那么的脆弱。

偶遇

今早在麦当劳吃早餐，见到一个中年妇人。她穿着整齐，皮肤深褐色，分不清是华族还是马来族。她独自一人，买了个土豆饼，坐在我正对面的桌子，边吃边喃喃自语，接着眼泪流了下来。。。 坐在她旁边座位的人都没有察觉到。


正当周围的人都喜气洋洋的准备庆祝农历新年的同时，却还有一些人正为生活中的事情而烦恼、伤心。过了一会儿，她吃完了土豆饼，擦干了泪水，又喃喃自语地走到柜台去买了杯饮料。
我稍不留神，她就已经消失在热闹的人群中了。。。希望她所烦的事，能像泪水一样，擦了就消失了。

Irritating people...

Some people are just so irritating! They want to be atas n demanding, yet they don't want to pay. Instead, they go to small HDB shops then start picking on every little thing and demand for this and that.

No confidence? Doubtful? Then go to the big guys and pay for confidence and service lor. Cant stand such people. Sigh...

what the hell??

somebody asked why I looked so unhappy and angry on my father's 100th day prayers??! Did somebody or something made me angry or what?

goodness! do you expect me to be smiling, laughing and joking away to 'celebrate' the 100th day after my father's passing? am I suppose to be happy about losing him?? what the .....

nobody can understand the pain I'm going through. and I cant even cry it out as and when I like simply bcos mum is with me. I cry, she'll cry too. Suppressing one's feelings is the worse thing in the world.

that's why I hate gatherings now. I hate meeting people and have to suppress my feelings and put up a front. I wish i can lock up in the room all by myself.

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!

大姑妈走了。。。

received a call just now and it's from hubby's 大表哥, bringing the dreadful news of his mum's passing.

I feel so guilty. We have not visited her for like coming 2yrs? They live in JB. It's not that far, but there just seems to be so many things that's holding us back. Have told hub that we should pay her a visit, but never got around to it. After Dad's passing, I mentioned it again and said she's getting old, better visit her while she's well. And now.........

A 70+ old lady, who's had a very tough life. But she's got amazing memory and very cheerful. She could remember all my 3 kids' birthday, both on the lunar and solar calendars. And she never needed reminder of their names, even though we only visited her periodically. She sees them as her own grandchildren. She's a really nice and simple lady.

We're gonna miss her dearly. 大姑妈您安息吧。

I need a compass....

....cos I'm so lost....


2mths already, and I dunno what have I been doing. Things are piling up, papers all over and so many things to sort out and settle, yet I dunno what I'm doing. My mind seemed so empty and I dunno where to start. I need a guide, an arrow to point me the direction.

We miss you so much.